Whew!

I have learned something about myself. I am not very good at blogging when my mind and time is consumed with something that I have to do. Take the last 6 months for example. From the time we made our first visit to Florida last August, the wheels were set in motion for a half year process that resulted in leaving our home, making a cross-country move, visiting family, and now preparing our hearts to settle into a new life in a new place. Whew! To say that it was all-consuming- (oh yeah, and homeschooling needed to go on as normal) would not do justice to how fixed my mind was on what was happening. So, there was little time to sit down and do any creative writing here.

But today is a new day.

I woke up today and had nothing that I had to do. That put me in a fog. When is that ever the
case with my crazy, busy life? We are staying with grandparents, and their home is warm and relaxing and restful. It only took me a few minutes to realize that a day to rest was the perfect gift for God to give me today. All the changes we’ve been through lately, (though they are an incredible answer to our prayers of many years,) have made us physically and emotionally tired. It is a very satisfying, joyful exhaustion, probably like the way a farmer feels when the crop is all safely gathered in, but exhaustion nonetheless. So we are resting.

Ahhhhhh! Thank you, Lord!

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Long Way Home

This is fast becoming one of my all-time favorite songs from Steven Curtis Chapman, and I have been loving his music for a long, long time.

Long Way Home

by Steven Curtis Chapman

I set out on a great adventure

The day my father started leading me home

He said there gonna be some mountains to climb

And some valleys we’re gonna go thorough

But I had no way of knowing

Just how hard this journey could be

Cause the mountains are steeper and the valleys are deeper

Than I ever would have dreamed

But I know we’re gonna make it

And I know we’re gonna get there soon

And I know some times it seems like were

Going the wrong way

But it’s just a long way home

I've got some rocks in my shoes

Fears I wish I could lose

They make the mountain so hard to climb

And my heart gets so heavy

With the weight of the world some times

And there’s a bag of regrets

my "should have beens" and "not yets"

I keep on dragging around

And I can hardly can wait till the day I can lay them all down

Well I know that day is coming

And I know it’s gonna be here soon

And I know I won’t turn back even if the whole world

Says I’m going the wrong way

Cause it’s just a long way home

And when we can’t take another step

The Father will pick us up and carry us in his arms

And even on the best days

He says to remember we’re not home yet

So don’t get too comfortable

Cause all we really are is just pilgrims passing through

Well I know that day is coming

And I know it’s gonna be here soon

I’ll keep on singing and believing

What all of my songs say

Cause our God has made a promise

And I know that everything he says it’s true

And he promised he would never ever leave us

He’s gonna lead us, He’ll lead us home

Every single step of the long way home

So keep on we’re gonna make it

We’re just taking the long way home

Keep on we’re gonna make it

I know we’re gonna make it

It’s just a long way home

You can listen to it by clicking here.

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My Thankful List 2011

So thankful for...

*the Lord Jesus Christ, without whom we would have no hope in this world, or the one to come. but with whom we have forgiveness for all our sins.

So thankful for...

*the unveiling of sin that humbles me

*the kindness of God that draws me

*the work of the Spirit that gives me repentance

*the tenderness of my Savior that welcomes me back

*and new mercies every day to press forward.

So thankful for...

*growing up with a dad that made me work

*the welcoming embrace of loved ones

*small white lights on Christmas trees

*a church where Christ is exalted and proclaimed

*and the way God uses other believers to make me grow

So thankful for...

*the inviting call of the Gospel to unworthy sinners

*paper snowflakes

*kids who serve when no one makes them

*the loss of stuff that we are tempted to trust in

*and how God uses children to kill some of our selfishness and pride.

So thankful for...

*the comfort of God's sovereign control

*crisp, juicy apples dipped in peanut butter

*photos of my kids when they were little

*the way the saints at CBC sing their hearts out

*and the way God has always provided for our needs.

So thankful for...

*God's work in my children's hearts

*beautiful sunsets

*family vacations

*the hope that comes with a new day

*and the big impact of little acts of kindness.

So thankful for...

*crocheted scarves

*Hebrews 4:14-16

*20-something years of music from Steven Curtis Chapman

*drinking my brewed coffee out of my favorite Starbucks cup

*and the diverse beauty God created in His world.

So thankful for...

*the comfort of the Psalms

*the timeless musings of C.H. Spurgeon

*the way little girls dance around when they are happy

*the blended wet colors of traffic lights on the road in the rain

*and the love my children have for their Daddy.

So thankful for...

*the well-captured images that come out of my daughter's camera

*the brilliant, breath-taking colors of fall

*cream cheese, avocado, and tomato on dark rye

*the entertaining things that Caleb says

*and the steady joy and peace that Christ gives in trials.

So thankful for...

*the body of Christ

*teeny, tiny newborn baby feet

*cups of steaming spiced apple cider

*family and friends who help celebrate happy times

*and God's amazing ability to answer my prayers in a way that surprises me.

So thankful for.....

*a break from school work

*dark chocolate

*friends that are intentionally encouraging

*watching God transform people's lives

*and new adventures :- )

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I'll Love You Forever!

Dear Brian,

(The following is a love note I wrote on Valentine's Day 2008, but it bears repeating to remind you of some of the reasons I love you today, on our 23rd wedding anniversary.)

Valentine's Day twenty years ago is a day that still stands out in my mind even after all these years. We were on the beautiful tropical island of Guam where we had met a few months before. It was a Sunday afternoon and we had enjoyed lunch together. A few days before that you had announced to me that you loved me, and wanted to commmit yourself to loving me for the rest of my life! Such honesty and, forgive the term, *purpose-driven dating* was quite new to me and I was surprised by your forthrightness! And yet, in the five months that I had known you I had come to recognize this as characteristic of your life. You are still the most clear thinking and articulate person I have ever met!

So, I had been mulling your declaration over and over in my mind and the question that I asked you that Valentine's Day was, "How do you know that I am the one?" Your reply was that biblical love is a commitment made once the whole person had been objectively evaluated, good and bad, and based on everything that you knew about me, you were ready to make that commitment! Well, it only took a few minutes to let you know that my secret list of all I had prayed for in "Mr. Wonderful" had already been checked off as I had gotten to know you, and if it really was that clear and simple, then, wow!... "I love you, too!"

That was a nice start, and you have been teaching me about Biblical love for 20 years now in many ways....

I love how you are so committed to teaching me and our children the Word of God. You continue on reading the Bible to us, taking the interruptions and distractions in stride, and looking forward in faith to the great things that God will do with His word in our lives. I also love how you constantly talk to us about what you are studying and learning.

I love how you show that you are thinking about me even when we are apart. When you call me just to check in and offer an encouraging word to press on, or show up with my favorite dark chocolate treat, you are saying, “You are on my mind!”

I love how you joyfully shoulder the responsibility of being Dad to our eight children. I know that it is a great task and no one is able to do it to God’s glory without His enabling. And so you have continued to ask for strength and wisdom and God is using you greatly in the lives of all of our kids.

I love how you have set the example of dealing graciously with people. You have taught me so much about this through your example with our children. Often you have diffused a conflict or soothed an upset child by your gracious words and your humility that allows you to ask forgiveness and see their side.

I love how you have loved me enough to confront sin when you see it, and show me a more God-honoring way. Recently you pointed out that I needed to work on “sweetness of speech” with one of our children. Your admonition was needed and the loving way that you brought it to my attention made it easy to see that you were right. Thanks!

I love how integrity guides you. Your example of striving to do what is right (in little and big things) will be a great legacy for our children. I have told you often that it is quite convicting to live with you at times…and that is certainly to my great benefit!

I also love how willing you have always been to make sacrifices for our family. I am astounded and so grateful for the amount of time that you have given to lead our 14 year homeschool venture! Your leadership over this and actually overseeing the high school years has made this dream a reality.

Brian, I am so thankful for the opportunity to tell the world that you are a great gift of love, protection, wisdom, and blessing to me straight from the hand of the Lord. I am forever changed because of it.

I love you so much,

Myra

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Worth it All

...That amazing moment of unspeakable joy when your grown children thank you for all the years you spent homeschooling them, giving them a happy childhood, and building a good relationship with them.

*deep, joyful sigh*

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My New Little Toy

I received an unexpected sum of money this week, and was able to make a purchase I've been contemplating for a while now. I bought an MP3 player and have spent the evening loading all my favorite music cds on to it. I am expecting some new cds to arrive any day now and can hardly wait to add them to the collection. Music really has an impact on me, and so I'm thankful that I can now carry the music of Sovereign Grace, Steven Curtis Chapman, Tenth Avenue North, Chris Tomlin, Caedmon's Call, Casting Crowns, Peter Furler, Starfield, and an old favorite, Wayne Watson -- in my pocket! :-)

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Thoughts about Hospitality

Hospitality, at its heart, is reaching out and welcoming people into your life. That can be done in so many ways, and at many different times. We have had times where we invited another family over and all sat down to dinner together. I usually make something simple that feeds a lot of people for little money, like a crockpot of chili or soup, or a tray of chicken baked in the oven with bread and salad. Or if we have guests after church, we will run by Little Ceasar's and get some of their $5 pizzas.

But other times, I've had a friend stop by for an hour in the middle of the afternoon and served nothing but a glass of cold water. We were freed to just talk and pray briefly without the work of serving a meal or cleaning up afterward.

One great thing about having people over so much is that it has moved me past feeling like each meal has to be a big production. Some of our sweetest times of hospitality have been when someone came by that we didn't expect and we foraged the leftovers together, or threw together some grilled cheese sandwiches. People are not coming to see how a gourmet meal is prepared and served. They are coming to be loved by you, and you can do that by just offering whatever you have, though it is simple.

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